I somewhat like my face. I mean, it’s disgusting and is very flawed but there are aspects of it that I find attractive, like the gauntness of my eyes and way my eyebrows frame my face. My lips are too small and look wrong in my face but if I smile then it looks a regular size, though my smile is really quite horrible and I should avoid doing that. Unless it is a wry side-smile, that I can do. And the suggestive side-smile with my head angled downward, I have that downpat. If I mix in some eyebrow movements I’m an attractive person.

Something I need to avoid is having a blank look on my face. The night before last I stared blankly at Karlee for a good 5 seconds and while that does not sound like a lot it felt like forever. Normally I would pull some face but I just..didn’t..I just sat there. It felt weird, as if she could see who I really was. I doubt she even realised of course, but I felt exposed.

I suppose I hide behind these expressions that I really don’t know whether they look good or not, but I do them anyway. I don’t intentionally hide behind them but…I don’t know.

I hate how my eyes are uneven. I don’t know if everyone can see it or not but I don’t want to point it out because once I realised I can’t avoid searching for it when I look at myself. Although, I find myself naturally ignoring it. I suppose my brain just doesn’t want to admit that I’m so uneven so it compensates by telling me that that is normal. It’s hard for me to even tell that they are uneven until I hold a ruler there or something. When I do it’s obvious that the right one is about 2cm higher than the left.

2cm doesn’t sound like much but in this instance it makes a huge difference.

I am not a terrible fan of my nose but it could be worse. My face would look a lot better if it was just slightly smaller, it’s really very pointy. Not only that but it looks as if, if I were made out of clay, the artist made my nose then said, “No it’s not big enough” and added another chunk to the tip.
That is to say, the slant changes direction.
But I’m not unhappy that I have a pointy nose. I like pointy noses. It’s not boring at least.

My forehead is too big

My ears stick out

My chin just sucks

I wish I could grow better facial hair…as in, a full beard…that would fix almost all of my troubles. No chin, no small mouth, no worries. OK that’s not true, but I want one.

I have a young face, but one that looks as if it’s being mistreated. It probably is, but that is only out of ignorance. My main focus of the past few years has been my hair because that is something that I can actually affect. My hair is almost good now, which is a very recent thing. About 3 months has it actually been good. I don’t want to cut it because I might ruin it.

My acne has almost completely gone away now. This makes me happy. I’m still spotty though. And there are a few scars, but not a heap.

I don’t know about my jaw, it can be good sometimes but..my chin..just..ugh. Perhaps underneath the atrocity that is my chin/neck there is a wonderful and framing jaw, but at the moment it’s hidden and this makes me sad.

My eyes are ok, just plain. I have long eyelashes.

My teeth are rather nice I suppose, but they don’t fit my jaw properly.

I look tired.

I really feel sorry if anyone is reading this, it must be intensely uninteresting, I am just extremely bored and I am putting off packing. I think I will have a shower now.
That’s all (I think) I know about my face. I could speak a bit more about my expressions, which are probably the most important thing to discuss, but I won’t because I want to have a shower.